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Sunday, October 16, 2011

wow.. time surely flies! my last blog post was on April (o.O)! I bet no one comes to this page anymore & i guess "thats the point".. hahah probably feel much better to vent out here :3

How have i been? -bored- i guess is the word... bored wif sch, work n my social life or rather i dun even haf one hahah~ *im an idiot n rather stay tat way*

=sometimes i wonder wat's the point of me doing that?= its envy rite? i dun get myself anymore either.. its so weird

+people who uses strong word can hurt some1 without even knowing it & i felt like an idiot seriously....+

Sad, bored and hate my life at the moment... *hoping to complete my uni smoothly so that my parents can stop annoying mi..., i seriously had no idea what i want to do in life... HR? i duno abt it im nt really the kind of outgoing/ leadership person..

FK MY LIFE seriously im getting more & more pissed off with myself for not knwing what i want and what i do....

-cant believe i stop trying n im lonely & yet i dun want to make an effort to go out to meet pple to do things...-

*juz wanted some1 to entertain mi 24hrs... regardless of who D: juz some1 who will talk craps wif mi n keep mi entertained =is it so hard?=

LIFE sux.. & i will stop envying

总以为自己有多么的坚强，可以不在乎一切，但事实并非如此

5:28 PM

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

19th April 2011

Went to a fortune teller or smthing at Bukit Timah wif alan...some of the things that the person said i believe are quite accurate :X

1. Bad temper
2. Make friends by see-ing my xin qing
3. Im a very straight forward person.. (v. true, i dislike pple talking to me gg ard the bush =.=")
4. LOLx she told me sometimes dun b so straight forward... hold back & do some charity o.O"
5. She said i ought to have been in luv ard 18-19... but i told her dun haf, den she mentioned the person muz haf hide it & didnt say o.O" (HU LAI DE??? lolx) anyway doesnt matter le..
5. I have all the elements... gold fire water land... so kk & my gui ren is those *rats* & *horses*..
6. Some bad things which im nt gg to share :X
7. Mentioned abt me gotta go out more often...
8. Said that i dun haf friends free to accompany me out (true... most of them are soOOo busy.. its been long since i ever met them :'( )
9. Gd career between 25-35, & haf to b in biz line & overseas o.O"
10. She mentioned abt making braces.. cos the teeth is also related somehw wif wealth -___-?
11. She gaf me 4 numbers for lottery to try my luk... my mom went & bought today the numbers... if the numbers really come out... i shall shout out in fb & really listen to her advice ba =X

tat's all the crazy things i did today...

im missing band so much omg.... :( i wish i could go back in time wif a time machine & go via band one more time

总以为自己有多么的坚强，可以不在乎一切，但事实并非如此

2:09 AM

Thursday, April 7, 2011

April 2011
Out for supper @ holland V.. on the way back home, was talking wif alan & he described me as someone mysterious as he had no clue as to what im thinking..& he tinks im aint gd at expressing myself [:( sighs... ] im knw he's trying to help me.. but i seriously dunno ...-__-"

Random thoughts...
保持距离有错吗。。？
因为一直以来都是这样的啊。。
已渐渐的习惯拿一些事情做借口。。去拒绝。。
或许还在不知情下伤害了他人的感情。。
但，这就是我啊。。（- o -）?
这也算是不知道如何表达吗？
可是这是我唯一懂得的方法。。

并不喜欢那安静的时刻。。总觉得十分的陌生。。
当没话题说时，会不知如何是好。。
会不知道要如何表达，而只能静静的在旁听着。。
时间久了，就好像变得透明人。。
勉强说话，但还是不自在。。
一场尴尬的场面。。而心里不禁会想为何在这。。
如果你不在不是更好吗？

安全地带。。我还做不到，无法走出去。。

总以为自己有多么的坚强，可以不在乎一切，但事实并非如此

3:25 AM

Monday, March 28, 2011

龚芝怡的《明知道我爱你》歌词

告诉你瞒着你只不过是个决定
放弃你忘记你只怕我无法前进
不知道为什么会如此莫名紧张你
我越了解你越靠近你越犹豫

明知道我爱你却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你宁愿沉默不语
该如何整理幸福在手里
我恨自己无能为力

明知道我爱你却不敢靠近你
我假装不在意反而痛了自己
多痛都可以不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道我也没关系

告诉你瞒着你只不过是个决定
但为何到如今我依然无法前进
不知道为什么会如此莫名紧张你
我越了解你越靠近你越犹豫

明知道我爱你却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你宁愿沉默不语
该如何整理幸福在手里
我恨自己无能为力

明知道我爱你却不敢靠近你
我假装不在意反而痛了自己
多痛都可以不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道我也没关系

明知道我爱你假装不在意
多痛都可以不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道真的没关系

Sometimes, it makes me wonder if the right one is out there..
how come there's no pounding of the heart...
no missing of a certain person..
despite all that, still feels the envy and uncertainty towards all of it..
afraid to make the move/response when the time actually comes..

*woodblock* pls buck up & make urself a less boring person :(

still learning /trying to get along wif pple..
will try 2 stop telling myself tat its awkward &-'no topics' to talk.. (even if its the truth :( ..)
guess its the result of being numb wif the pple passing by my life for such a short time...
despite tat i shall 4ever treasure the short memories.. regardless if its sad or happy memories..
it shall always be kept in this blog / diary..

总以为自己有多么的坚强，可以不在乎一切，但事实并非如此

3:37 PM

Rawrs been quite some time since i last blogged.. okie *time to continue writing my boring diary*

Recalls of events~
13 march 2011.. Universal Studios trip wif Yee sihui, David, John, Kiat~
Meet up wif david on train at JE stop... even *booked* a seat wif my bag =.=" super embarrassing.. but ps cos i was late bo bian!

then meetup wif John, Kiat yee at Seah Inn foodcourt.. *smacks* john..ty for bullying mi so much -its payback *muaahaa

Then we went on to USS to get the tixs~ 1st stop was Shrek in 3d, we were all amazed wif the water sprayed at us each time donkey sneezed o.O", the spider part was the most shocking one *almost all of us were shocked by that* Lolx..

When we came out, it was raining quite badly.. hence we went over to some Donkey live show (singing) place to take shelter from the rain... pics taken!

every1 looks so stiff hahaa..
From Left to right: Me, Sihui, David, John, Kiat

Haha.. during the donkey show, Kiat kena chosen to vow for some stupid shrek practices lol..*SUAY!* :p

Next few stops (summarized): Jurassic park adventure! (WARNING) pple better buy poncho nxt time if u pple goes to this place!... the idiot 5pple of us didnt buy & end up *WET* Okie lah, the gals were only 50% wet from bottom down... the guys more suay (Head to toe all wet) despite them kept looking at the direction where the "boat" was heading.. they werent able to avoid the final deadly blow when the gate opened! *lol.. my friend said cos they were the heaviest tats y the boat swayed that way.. HAHA anyway Ty bcos the guys got wet instead of us.. & somemore they were wearing SHOES wif socks tat day... nice soaking for the feet for the entire day :D

Mummy ride... waited outside for them, as i heard it was a roller coaster ride; they went out shortly then john & david LIED to me saying the ride was like something for kids.. nt scary =.=" in the end i went on & i felt like scolding john when the ride starts... damned him! the ride was rather fast wif twists & turns !!!!@#$%^&*&^%$#$% after the ride.. smack the heck out of that idiotic johnathan! Damned him! RAWRS...

we had lunch wif hotdogs.. then went on some others shows/ attractions ard the place... before we went for the deadly roller coaster; i waited for them while they tried on the blue & red roller coaster.. X__X in the end i oso kena dragged to play zzZzz (!___!)" the blue roller coaster is the most scarly one felt like 360degree & screamed like siao... the red colored is only fast..but more standard track =.=" tried only once each ride ! no more roller coaster rides in USS for the rest of my entire LIFE *Rawrs!*

27th March 2011..
Dex bthday party, went wif BoonGuan, Sihui, Tommy to popeyes at Changi Airport.. okie declared the food is so-so only not v. fantastic.. i bought a slice of cake from icing room for dex but sihui forgotten about the lighter.. so boonguan went & bought 1 lighter specially.. =.=" in the end actually Tommy had one zzZzz LoLs.. present for zy ! smoker haha.. bg dun wan gif XD

then we went to a place & started playing monopoly deal card game =.=" i guess mi & boon guan was the ultimate loser didnt even win 1 round & i hate it when they flash the "its my birthday card" cos i dun haf $$ & had to pawn my property & often left wif nthing on the floor =.="! (but on the whole it was a fun game) ^^ managed to catch the last train back home ysterday !

Countdown.. 1more mth to my exams :( sighs the whole cohort tio scolding from ER lecturer also

WAKE UP CALL ting.. stop dreaming !___!

总以为自己有多么的坚强，可以不在乎一切，但事实并非如此

2:59 PM